Hmmm

I decided to stop blogging out whateva i felt on the spur of the moment, and as a result lost the motivation to blog, i mean i feel the emotional drives of a particular situation and i write it down, yet when i get my cool head back and recount the scenario i tend to regret letting people read it... Aniwaes lesson learnt...

*watch this space* i am pissed with everyone arnd me... i'll blog when i cool down


hmmm aniwaes man utd won, 7 games to go 5 points difference cld be a very close call at the end of the season and luckily for us this time round we are not part of the chasing pack... aniwaes liverpool fans, i really pity u guys, the scoreline was not fair for you guys and seriously you guys need to sack benitez, all he does is talk to much and get his tactics wrong...

I tend to be too helpful arnd people and maybe i become a problem because i help, sue me.... aniwaes i wonder what the rule of thumb is for helping, how do you know your action today might be good/bad...i mean to some youre the best mel, ure a lifesaver, yet to some why dnt u mind ur own f.business....to each his own ya but i dnt knw, reading through this blog i noticed time and time again i told myself i dnt want to help animore yet i frequent it... haha i'm trying to curb the addiction but not helping myself much here....sum1 shoot me plz...

Aniwaes i start work today, afta months of being a nuinsance, of not getting any pay and months of controlled spending i start work today, i wish i could have started earlier or maybe feel a bit excited but sumhow i am not.. i like work dnt get me wrong, the pain i felt each thursday when all my resumes get me no interviews or call backs is long gone, i dnt need to scurry over every ad looking for a job and being indian and only a diploma holder is a bitch....one day people try acting like your indian in singapore..racism isnt dead, its just hiding....

I know racism isnt as bad as it is elsewhere but its still present, i hate it when i sit down next to a chinese lady and she immediately turns the other way, i hate it when i wait for the lift and people take the next one even though its nt crowded, i hate people asking me things in malay as if i dnt comprehend english, i speak three languages and understand four thank you...i dnt knw its what u get from being a minority i guess... tough luck eh....

But it aint all bad, i mean if u ask me whu my frens are i mostly point to other races.... Sid, jer, cathy, jini, amz, eshie, desmond, gary they are all different coloured yet i love em all the same... life teaches you many lessons and the one i learnt well is theres two sides to every coin.....

Lastly just a dream, i wonder of a time where i finally might get to do wat i want, sit in the beach and let the world exist behind me, be alone and enjoy the wind blowing me...the waves ushering me to join them.... i long for a day where i get to lie on my beloved and count the stars, and live out fantasies that the books spell out for us.. i wish to travel the world, walking across cultural differences... i long to find love... everywhere...

God Bless